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It breaks my heart…

It breaks my heart…

Well we can’t afford to just nip over to America and I’m not even sure we’d be able to see him, so we’ll have to send a letter instead.

No, I’m not talking about a relative that lives over the pond, I am in fact talking about Ryan, from Ryan’s Toy Reviews.

Recently Corben has been adamant that we’re getting on a plane and going to see Ryan, so much so there have been tears. Corben’s tears not mine, although I’ll admit my tear ducts were bubbling at one stage.

Corben has gone on about going to visit Ryan for a couple of days and yesterday he hit breaking point over it. When we explained as best we could that we can’t just nip over to America and meet him he broke down in tears. Nothing new really, he can be an emotional kid as they all can be. Only this time it wasn’t a little whinge because we’d said no to having an 18th Oreo, it was a genuine heartbreaking sob.

Still, I thought he’ll have a decent cry and then get over it as they usually do about things that in our adult reality are ridiculous but to him right at that moment it was his entire world. The tears dried up but his motivation to contact Ryan did not waiver in the slightest. We spoke again about how we couldn’t at the moment go over and see Ryan and then he decided for now, we would send him a letter instead.

Corben drew a lovely little picture (Which I didn’t take a picture of FFS!) we got an envelope and a stamp and he requested I wrote on it…

Ryan’s Toy Reviews


From Corben

I did, then we went down to the post box to send it off to America! You can watch us in this daily vlog 🙂

I did have a look online to see if Ryan had his own PO Box etc for receiving fan mail but it seems the only way to get in touch is via social media. This wasn’t acceptable to Corb, he’d decided it was a letter and that was that.

This is where my heart strings were being tugged. He was so happy to be sending a letter to Ryan and was discussing what Ryan might say and was over the moon that Ryan would know his name and write back to him. As he was talking I felt mixed feelings inside. Half of me was loving how happy he was and how he was letting his imagination run wild. The other half was dying inside at the fact I knew the letter was only going to one place, the bin!

Donetta made an excellent point that of course the time when most children are at their peak of happiness is all based on a load of shite too, Christmas. They send letters to Santa every year and we even filled in something online and Corben got a video message from the big man himself. The tooth fairy, easter bunny, the list goes on how many lies and stories we tell children to give them happiness and there’s no harm in any of that is there?


Something feels different about this and I don’t know why. Is it because we’ve already been brained washed into accepting all the other traditions but writing this letter is something new? Or am I just being daft?

Our good friend Rebecca at Becster.com has kindly offered to write back as Ryan obviously, which isn’t a bad idea really. Do we just go with that idea or hope he forgets about it all… He won’t! If he does get a response though what will happen next?!

I’ve literally no idea why this has bugged me enough to write about it but I’m glad I have because now it’s typed up on a screen and I’ve got it off my chest I already don’t feel half as bad. There’s no harm in a little role play is there, he’ll not even like Ryan in about a weeks time!

Thanks for listening, this has felt like a therapy session!

I’d love to read in the comments the biggest porky pies you’ve told you children and/or the lengths you’ve gone to, to keep them happy… See you online @dadvworld






  1. 27th September 2017 / 9:33 am

    I honestly can’t remember the biggest lie. Just the usual white lies like Santa, Easter bunny and the ‘dodo’ (dummy) fairy. In most cases we try not to lie just for sake of it, we normally just explain the situation and hope she understands. Not that I’m suggesting there is anything wrong with it. In your situation I’m sure we’d do the same, role play is perfectly normal and if it makes them happy then it can’t be too bad. Look forward to seeing ‘Ryans’ reply…

    • DadvWorld
      27th September 2017 / 9:46 am

      Yes, we’re the same. I try to give him the actual truth whether it’s good or bad so he learns to deal with it. Even things like, the shops are closed today… When they’re not. We just tell him we’re not going in because we have no money, the truth! Lol. We will see where this goes, it’s not the worst thing to tell a little lie about 😃

      • 27th September 2017 / 9:49 am

        Exactly. I was going to write a similar example but didn’t want to ramble on and on. 😂

        • DadvWorld
          27th September 2017 / 10:57 am

          Haha! You ramble away mate 😃👍🏻

  2. 27th September 2017 / 10:05 am

    Ah this is why we never did Santa, or Easter Bunny or Tooth Fairy, other than in a very tongue in cheek way. I am not great at lying, it’s just not something I am naturally very good at. Not always helpful in life lol.

    I think too, I have always wanted my kids to see me as someone to trust, and I remember feeling devastated when I found out about little white lies my parents had told me to spare me. The feelings of being lied too, where probably just as bad as the things they were trying to shield me from. But I guess we will never know that.

    No judgement on my behalf, each family has to do what works best for them, but my own experience of feeling lied too and my own guilt at lying has probably meant we are far more pragmatic with our kids.

    • DadvWorld
      27th September 2017 / 11:00 am

      Yeah definitely everyone has different views and I find it really interesting that there are so many different ways to look at it. It’s also interesting to see how your childhood experience has led directly into your decision as a parent. I don’t think there’s too much harm with either route. Thanks for reading and commenting 😃

  3. 30th September 2017 / 10:43 pm

    I’m of the mind that you should make believe with kids as much as possible. Let them believe absolutely anything and everything. Their imaginations need to develop and nurtured as long as possible. The real world is cruel and tiring and the longer you can delay that the better.

    And seriously I will write back if you want! Although let me know who Ryan is so I can get his style! 🙂

    • DadvWorld
      1st October 2017 / 8:45 am

      That’s a great point Bec! I wonder if this way of thinking helps them believe anything is possible. That’s a mentality I want them to have. To be fair, he’s not mentioned the letter since!!! 😂😂😂

  4. Miriam
    5th January 2019 / 12:21 am

    My 4 year old just wrote a letter to Ryan too. He’s been insisting for days that I get his mailing address so we can put it in the mail. I completely understand how you feel as a parent. 🙁

    • DadvWorld
      7th January 2019 / 10:43 am

      Heartbreaking isn’t it. He’s since moved away from Ryan slightly and moved more into gaming and has started talking about merch! HA! It’s gonna cost more than a letter to Ryan! HA!

  5. 5th January 2019 / 1:49 pm

    I m in te same boat as most of you. My lil 4 yr old grandson is so engrossed wit Ryan so much so not a day goes witout wstching him on youtube. Our tv time has been pratically snatched away by Ryan …..my lil just did not stop at tat he also wants to go visit Ryan…if only tat is as easy as ABC ..any toys Ryan has my lil guy also wants a duplicate copy of it…
    So kudoos to Ryan n team for creating a Ryanmania among our lil angels

    • DadvWorld
      7th January 2019 / 10:44 am

      Yes! ‘When can we go to America’ has been said a fair few times. Trying to get a little one to understand it’s not that simple isn’t easy. He’s moved onto gaming now and wants merch of his favourite gamer! I’m kinda missing the days when he just wanted to post a letter to Ryan, that was cheaper HA!

  6. Tate Singer
    7th February 2019 / 2:33 pm

    So it DOES end, right? I dont know how many times I can tell him that we ARENT meeting Ryan at Disney, or LegoLand. Thank s for this blog, it’s obviously needes

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