Something slightly different on the blog today. My good friend Markus from The Silly Daddy Chronicles shares his raw and honest experience with blogging and dyspraxia.
Blogging consistently with Dyspraxia or why aren’t I swimming in it already?
I’m on my second blog since I started writing things down 6 years ago.
Some of my problem of blogging consistently is definitely my dyspraxia. It does creep into all parts of my life. I learned a lot about myself and dyspraxia over the last few months. Not from books or doctors. Obviously from a medical point of view doctors know their stuff so it be silly to argue with one. No I just spoke to another dyspraxic person Emma – Dyspraxic Domesticated Mummy and the amount of times she said that she has problems with the exact same things made me realise that while it is healthy to take responsibility for your actions at least I know to some extent why this was likely to happen, I still have a daily battle with organising, prioritising, distractions but now it is a bit clearer why. I still hate deadlines, and find it very difficult to deal with the guilt when I haven’t done something at the time I said I was going to do it or as I just said if I miss a deadline and let someone down.
Which brings us to another added complication in my life. I suffer from chronic low self esteem and self worth. I just don’t seem to be able to snap out of this. I’m my own worst critic, worst enemy. I can sabotage things beautifully and always blame myself for things that go wrong, even when I am not completely or at all to blame. It is difficult to stay positive when you are me.
Everyone always says do not compare yourself to others. That is hard though. If I hadn’t done this or if I had done that would I be more like David from DadvWorld these days? It is Just amazing what he is doing, how he is going from strength to strength.
Then there is the added problem that friends and family read everything I write / post. So I censor myself as to not embarrass others and myself too much. It is not just the embarass part, I don’t want to offend anyone really.
All this leads to me being uncertain if i should post something or not. So I tend not to just because as I said I don’t want to tread on anyone’s toes. Don’t want to embarrass or hurt anyone.
What would you do in my situation?
Markus, The Silly Daddy Chronicles
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Very honest stuff from Markus, I’m absolutely honoured that you’ve mentioned me and asked me to publish this on your behalf. I hope as many people as possible can get involved and drop some comments with their advice or their own stories of similar experiences.
On a less serious note, if you’re ever going to compare yourself to anyone, raise the bar higher than me! LOL 🙂